Life is Good. The Bear got home from his trip, 1800 miles to PEI and back. He had a great time! This control freak of a man was completely out of his element and comfort zone. He is forever changed.

This change started early last May when he learned a good friend of his died and he didn't know until a week after his funeral. I've watched as he began trying so hard to open our communications which was almost non-existent.

When he got home and saw the kitchen, he was surprised, but was not as negative as I was sure he would be. In fact, his words were - "It's Bright! But Hon, my name isn't Peter." I nodded and said yeah, and that's important because...?" He said, "It looks like you're in a Pumpkin shell! But it's your kitchen so if you love it, that's fine with me!" I was shocked! I wanted to say "Maybe your name IS Peter - who are you and what have you done with my Bear?!?" Instead, I said "you approved these colors when The Girls were here and I have witnesses." "I did?!? Okay." and that was the end of it.

We spent hours just talking about his adventures. He was more open than I've seen in many years. His eyes sparkled and snapped. It was as if this trip breathed Life into him. He talked about how one of the guys dumped his bike on a highway in a construction zone, Bear almost dumped his in trying to avoid him. As it turned out, there was a small torn jean pocket and a slight abrasion on a knee. I took great delight in letting him know there were many witches who had sent protection spells over them - and he just chuckled a bit and said to tell all "Thanks" for him!!

As the week has progressed and my work schedule which is opposite of his kicked in, it's been quiet for us, but my night off last night brought us together and the talks continued and has taken a deeper turn. This Man who is so much a Bear who stays inside his cave is beginning to peer out beyond that opening. It's so very exciting! He's been born again and not in a biblical sense!

I can't wait to see where this journey that started on a motorcycle and moved back here to our home will take us! I fully expect some bumpy roads, glorious sunsets, and some serious laughter.

It's all Good!

The Bear called today from Maine. He'll be home tomorrow. YAY! I can't believe how much I've missed him. Heh-heh-heh! He says his butt hurts from the bike! H'mmmmm! I'm hopin' I can fix it!!!!

The kitchen is basically done. I love it! Lots of fine tuning to do but it reminds me of a warm Fall afternoon - my favorite time in space. He may not be as appreciative. Oh Freakin' well!!

Last time we spelled together – I requested finding my bank cards. I found them tonight! I'm grateful – WAY grateful!!

But more importantly-

I'm reeling from tonight's ritual. And all I say is thank you – I truly felt the energy coming to me from all of you as I sat in utter dismay which graciously turned to brilliant light.

Blessed Be

and

A'ho!

Morning Rain's blog got me to thinking about how I too have been dealing with extremes. It came up yesterday while talking to my Fire Sistah.

Be patient with me while I try to get this out in a cohesive manner -

The Element I work with the most is Water. I've always been all about the Heart of the matterand with that comes lots of emotion. I even saw it as needing to allow people to take advantage of me.

Last year we called up the Warrior within. It's been a tough year. I've had a hard time trying to balance the 2. I like being fluid. I like being able to take to heart another's pain while trying to help another out. After my Warrior roared up, I've had a hard time at not always being so negative. I sought advice from an old friend who has shown he had no problem with balancing Heart with his hard edges when he needed to.

Well, on the other hand, my Fire Sistah met Water this summer and has been trying to balance the 2. She feels she has lost her edge and is having a hard time with not being fiery all the time since she fears the her fire will simply go out. As we were discussing this, out of my mouth came these words: "I say embrace it! Unless you emerse yourself into it, you'll never understand it." She said, "But I've never been balanced this way". So I asked, "How can you balance what you don't truly understand and know from the inside out?!??"

That's when it hit me! I have to do the Fire! And I need to hold on to the Water/Emotion flow I know so well!   I have to have this job where it's possible at any given moment I can get my head bashed in instead of the passive sit at my desk and do mundane stuff for 8 hours. I have to learn to be pro-active instead of simply reactive. Extremes.

From this place, I finally get this part of the lesson. It's time I started taking notice of what's going on around me instead of going with the flow.

From Morning Rain's blog, I think she's  finding that delicate balance - rather like those soft, flowing curves where Yin meets Yang. I want to be so much like her when when I get to that place.

A Grandmother told me a long time ago,

"There is no Bad Medicine - because even with the bad, you get good from it. You can't have one without the other."

Does any of it make sense?

I pretty much agree with this one.

Your Birthdate: October 26

You lucked out the the skills to succeed in almost any arena. Put you in almost any business or classroom, and you'll rise to the top. You're driven and intense, but you also know when to kick back and cooperate. Your ability to adapt to almost any situation is part of what's going to make you a success. Your strength: Your attention to detail Your weakness: You can be a little too proud of your successes Your power color: Turquoise Your power symbol: Arrow pointing up Your power month: August